I hope I accomplish what I need/want to do. I pray I finish my bachelors.

I pray that I actually get into a pharmacy program (in either a year or two or a few haha). Here's looking at you Loma Linda & Western University, I had a lack of faith cuz of how hard it is and the fact that I'm not super smart. But I read online that if I truly want to go for it, just do it. I just was looking at back-up options, since it WILL take long.

I have so many plans but I need to accomplish the baby steps first before leaping and saying things.

I looked at nursing as a possible option, its a good career yes, and to all future nurses and nursing graduates you are awesome, you have the drive and determination to accomplish a field that so many ppl are afraid to go into including myself. I'm confident I would be able to handle the workload/hw/school but the thing is IDK if I would be able to handle the whole profession. I was traumatized by the death of my dad a few years ago and it is VERY hard to see people suffering, I cannot handle the ICU unit. I know you can accomplish anything that you put your mind to but I prefer pharmacy.

I currently work at a pharmacy, as a pharmacy clerk I am learning alot, about medications, generics, refills, how to handle certain pts, controlled medications, and insurances. Its quite fascinating and it helps that the ppl I work with are funny, nice BUT serious when its crunch time. Everyday can be like a battlefield, you gotta be ready for anything. But the main thing is that its hard field/program to get into.

I'm planning during the summer *while on break from school, i prolly will take summer classes as well*, to take a Pharmacy tech class, i don't need to do internship hrs since I already work for a pharmacy.

So far I plan on getting my pharmacy tech license, finish my bachelors and go from there. Apply to schools needed and take/improve on classes that I need to do to increase my success. Maybe I'll just be happy with my bachelers but I want to keep pushing for my masters. I was scared to grow up and see my possible future but all I see now is that I'm getting older, I need to stop wasting time, and look at the fact I'm 22 now, no longer 16. Before you know it I'll be 25! then 30... etc.

I want to make my family proud, I've slacked off long enough, I need to just shut up and do it already. I'm very proud at my older sister, she's going to be an LVN soon and she's juggling at being a mom, a wife and she works! AND she's going for her RN when she moves back here to CALI!!!

After college, comes my career and after that THEN comes marriage. Heck me and my coworker already have come up with our weddings, rings *tiffany's with matching wedding band pls* just missing the groom hahaha. I want my own house first, I want out of the desert, I know i'll be back but I just want to temporarily move away from here. Possibly live near LA not too close or too far.

I look around me, everyone's going places and growing up, married, engaged, kids *shudders* sry but i know thats ONE thing I'm not ready for LOL.

I WANT to be engaged or at least in a serious relationship by the age of 25. Hopefully by then I have most of the things I want done. I want my future bf/fiance/husband to at least have a college education, I need someone who has the drive/motivation to succeed and looking at a real career. and no i don't date people from the desert, sorry to disappoint ;] hahaha but the connections here run too deep and besides I like someone already but we're both focusing on other things. I don't think men handle stress as well as women can. But patience pays off and only time will tell. Like an etch-a-sketch we got shook up and seems like its starting all over again. BUT FIRST ME then YOU. I think thats how you're thinking as well.

I promised my mom I would pay for my brother's college tuition and I plan on sticking by that. He graduates in 2013. I'm pushing him to do well in his studies, I'm very sure he'll do well academically. I told him not to screw up like I did. I regret some choices I have made but they were made. I have learned.

I need to make things happen. I need to.

I WILL MAKE IT. I WILL FINISH. I WILL HAVE ALL THAT I WANT. just give me time =] I'll get there...

Please God, I put all my faith and trust in you. Put me on the path that leads me to a successful and happy future.